All About Work?

Ok, im back!! after days of being MIA, i decided to come back and update about stuff im going thru at the moment. Im into my third month of training and honestly, I've got no clue on how i feel about continuing working in the hotel industry after graduation. Well, i"ve told my parents that I won't wanna work until i've officially graduate from my degree! *woohooooo* it's like FINALLY rite? hehehe...like i said, im having mixed feelings about it. but i suppose the problem goes the same anywhere. there are always screwed up people in every organisation rite? *sigh*

i met the love of my life again the other day. after so long, seeing him again made me feel like i was holding my breath since the last time i saw him. i know, we aren't exactly together anymore but i don't feel that way. he is still very much apart of me and i just cant let him go. maybe its true, we can never let go of our first love. the feeling of seeing him again, gosh...its so hard to describe the feeling.. its like i had a rose bud inside me that was blooming as big as the sun! anyway, spending a few hours with him was the best hours i had in these 3 months! i am so looking forward to see him again! =D

oh yea, i just applied leave from my department. had to crack my head for giving them a very valid reason to approve my leave. and guess wat? i got it!!! YAY!! lets hope then wont find out. *lips are sealed* btw, its time for me to shut my lappie and rest early for my next war tomorrow with my colleagues! tata for now. nites people! mwahhh

Hi! I exist.. =P

Hello people!!

I'm new! This shall be my very first beginning in writing out my thoughts out loud. Honestly, I didn't know what strike me into writing blogs. Maybe it's because I've got so much to say but somehow worry what people might say or how they'll judge me. So, whoever that reads this, you may or may not agree in how I see things but I do hope it gives you all a different perspective in seeing things in life.

Life. What the hell is it all about? I'm currently going thru some major issues in life. At this point in time, I would say my life sux real bad. Everything is falling apart and i wish i could blame it on someone but look left, look right, there's only me. Surrounded by hundreds and maybe thousands of people daily but all i see is just me standing alone. The world's so big but why am i alone? i have a dysfunctional family. i love and am still deeply in love with a guy who i'm no longer with. i have friends who i know i can rely on but i just don't know why i keep pushing them away when i'm going thru the darkest moments in my life. Ok, reading back what i just type, its safe to say im psycho! arghhhhh!!!

Oh yea, not to mention, i hate my effing job! to be fair, its not a job since its training but yea, i hate it still...gtg for now. the bed's calling and the clock is ticking! yikesss....good nite to everyone out there!